Although I didn’t technically make any new year’s resolutions, I’ve always known in the back of my restless mind that I need to get out more. Depression feeds off the loneliness and solitude that we give it, and being depressed means we crave loneliness and solitude. Yep, so you can see how deep of a ‘rut’ us depressed folks get ourselves into. So, on the 2nd January 2015, one day after the demise of my relationship, I took a crisp winter walk and went into efficiency mode, picking up literally any pamphlet I laid my eyes on, because I wanted to be just that; the person who picks up pamphlets. The person who embraces the world.
Despite the pamphlets being a total waste of time as I reviewed their contents once back home, this whole business of looking into evening classes spurred me on, and I went online. Which is probably what I should have done in the first place but there was just something about picking up those pamphlets that made me feel independent and decisive, a woman on a mission, a woman about town. A woman who so care free she has all the time in the world for pamphlets! But that said, I already had an idea of what I was after; Mindfulness. You might think Mindfulness as that hipster buzzword, associated with those who attend farmer’s markets to purchase their locally grown organic plum chutney and browse the latest in hemp fashion, but actually, it’s an ancient meditation technique that Buddhism meditation was formed on. Being practiced around the world since 1500 BCE, different religions have endeavoured in Mindfulness techniques to seek inner peace and understanding, but in modern, urban communities, it’s largely practiced to help people cope with anxiety and stress, training the mind to be calm and at peace. If I could have one thing in life, it would probably be peace and overall contentment, so yes, I wanted in.
What is Mindfulness?
In its Buddhist context, mindfulness has three main purposes; knowing the mind, training the mind, and freeing the mind. Essentially, it’s about being aware of the present moment and having non-judgmental thoughts about ourselves and situations. Mindfulness is a practice, comprised of formal meditations and a range of techniques that can be integrated into our daily lives to help us become more – you guessed it – ‘mindful’. The end goal is to have peace of mind and the way to get there is through mindfulness practice and meditation. Our thoughts often wander and concentrating on one thing seems almost laughable in today’s society, so Mindfulness techniques help to bring the mind and your thoughts to the here and now, focusing on the sounds outside and inside of the room, our bodies and our breathing. Dubbed the new caffeine, Mindfulness improves productivity through enhancing awareness and patience, training our minds to listen before we act.
Why do we need Mindfulness?
Although used to help people overcome anxiety and stress, Mindfulness practices are designed to improve our overall mental wellbeing, which is something the entire world could benefit from. Our world moves at such a fast past; our desires having to be met instantaneously, information delivered to us in less than 2 clicks, and relationships hurried along to progress after 1 week. Take that, along with the fact that all of these smart devices have us juggling ten things at once; emails, social media, videos, social calendars.
We need constant gratification from our online conversations that it’s almost impossible not to launch at our phones when we notice a flicker of light from our peripheral vision, that all encompassing notification that somebody has interacted with a tweet or status or photo. Careers are becoming more stressful, as many jobs expect more output for the same pay. Relationships are becoming more intense as they’re displayed online for the world to see, judge and scrutinise. We all have something to prove and we’re trying to function when our head space is at full capacity, constantly thinking about something. Worrying about something. Imagining something based on our irrational fears. Do we ever. Just. Stop? When was the last time you sat down for an entire evening and relaxed? Even when we do have days where we come home and refuse to do the chores, chances are we’ll be subconsciously judging ourselves because we didn’t do the washing up or cut the grass or whatever that unimportant thing might have been. Life expects us to be at full pace without any give; a fully charged, multi-tasking robot, efficiently handling all of these tasks that society has thrown at us without so much as a thought to whether human beings are designed to live this way.
I see the problem as that we’re not making enough time for ourselves. Yes, we’re all technically doing things, and stuff, but are we making at least half an hour in the day where we reflect, notice and look at ourselves and the world? Probably not. Thirty minutes is a lot to ask for these days. I constantly crave my own space because I find the hectic social order unbearable sometimes, but what I am doing with that space and time isn’t healthy, or mindful. I choose to scroll through the hell that is social media, a battleground for opinions, defences and judgements, and most of the time I come out of the other end covered in emotional war wounds with a loss of faith in humanity. I do this at the same time as having several Whatsapp conversations bleeping on my phone. Also, I’ve got my Kindle next to me with massive intentions to unwind and get lost in a fantasy word, set in turn of the century New York. Another intention was to watch a nature documentary, that I’ve now muted in the background because I came across a prank video that I felt utterly compelled to watch.
I have the attention span of a teaspoon. And I don’t think I am the only one. Focusing on nothing, or even just one thing, opens up Pandora’s box in my mind and releases my subconscious, screaming and thrashing about in a straight jacket, just hoping for somebody to loosen the straps just a little. When I try to go to sleep, she doesn’t stop. When I try and watch a film alone, she’s still screaming. It’s a constant barrage of negativity and conjured up future scenarios. But staring into the abyss of a smartphone doesn’t cease the cries; it just drowns her out for short periods of time, antagonising her further.
Mindfulness trains our mind to bring our attention to one thing at a time, and to just be aware of our feelings or bodily tension without resistance. For example, when brushing my teeth I like to potter about, choose what to wear for the day – because doing a menial task requires little thinking, and the girl in the straight jacket in my head would use this open opportunity to bring dread and worry to my thoughts, as she’d play out another of her stressful scenarios. However Mindfulness would say to just stand still and brush your teeth, being aware of your body and its actions, merely concentrating on your brushing technique. Whilst this may seem amateur, it’s a lot harder than you’d think.
Is Mindfulness right for me?
It’s not voodoo – you don’t need a tuft of your ex partner’s hair or the toenail of a minotaur to make Mindfulness work. There are many gentle, soothing, guided meditations online and the only thing required is an open mind – ahem – and a chair. Even if you don’t suffer with anxiety, stress encounters us all at some point, and meditation seems the most human way to help combat our feelings of worry. However, Mindfulness is not a quick remedial fix. It’s a way of life. Why do you think Buddhists are collectively so calm and harmonious, level headed and at peace? I’d be willing to bet on my entire existence that it’s because they’re investing time in mindful walks, mindful listening and mindful breathing – not because they received 100 Likes on their latest Facebook update.
I may sound like a preacher here, suddenly an advocate for Mindfulness after a few measly sessions, but the principle of it all, just makes sense. The world seems to be propelled by super fast WiFi and coffee, so it’s only right we slow down and take a minute to let our shoulders sag and feel the pressure melt away and dissolve into the ground. It makes sense to take time to notice ourselves and surroundings, as there’s so much confusion and hype to get lost in. The world will still spin as madly and wildly as it always has done at 1,040 mph – you don’t have to imitate it.
Check out Mindspace for loads of online resources and information about Mindfulness courses and retreats 🙂